The second weigh in!

Hey folks,

I'm back with another blog! This time it's just a short update on how my diet is going.. or "meat-tox". I'm sure some of you have seen the videos I've put up and therefore know that it is in fact going well. And some of you would also have seen the last post I wrote with some of those videos in it as well.

Today is day 11. As of today, Day 11, I have lost approximately 3.5 kilos. So it's fair to say, it's working.

My diet has mainly been the same each day, at least the lunch portion:
1 Roll, with Ham (or other sandwich meat), and then some other protein-rich foods on the side, like kabana, or cheese, or salami sticks (or "twiggy sticks"), and a small amount of 70% cocoa dark chocolate.

No snacks.

Dinner has been one of two things; either something that I have in my freezer, mainly chicken, mainly about 400g in total weight, with no sides, which means no chips, no hash browns, wedges, or vegetables, or anything like that.

The other option for dinner has been take-away. Being either McDonalds, or KFC. My choices from McDonalds have been the Triple Cheeseburger, The Double Quarter Pounder and a McDouble.
And from KFC, 10 "wicked wings", or (on tuesdays because they have a deal at the moment) 9 pieces of original recipe chicken.

To drink I have had water. And occasionally, some soft drink, but not much. And one or two small chocolate milk cartons. Oh and regular milk too.

So I've cut out snacking on things like regular chocolates, or maltesers, or pretzels, or anything at all really. I've cut out buying meals from take away places, so that I don't get chips, or potato and gravy, or drinks. And while you may look at what I buy from McDonalds and say "that's too much" ... just remember that while it's too much for you, and it's bad for you, I've lost 3.5 kilos in 11 days while eating that. It's about the protein, and to a lesser extent, the fat. Yes, there are carbs in the rolls, and the buns, but that is basically the only carbs I'm eating, or .. at least the only "high carb" foods.

Remember, my condition is such that my body can't process carbs into energy, and therefore has to use other energy sources, like protein and fat. When I do eat carbs, they are turned into fats and stored that way (hence the struggle to lose weight), or at least the part that would normally be used for energy is, as I can't "make" it, or store it.

So my body finds alternate ways of fuelling itself. This is where the protein and fat comes into it. Fat is used as energy when exercising slowly (i can't remember where i heard that, but it was somewhere that I trust), and as I only walk on my treadmill at an average of about 2.4 km/h, I'm pretty sure that counts as slow. And Protein is basically instant energy. It can't be stored up for later use though. And if fats are stored.. well.. you get fat obviously.

So, while you may think I'm eating unhealthily, or I'm not getting enough nutrients, or vitamins, or any of that stuff, before you start telling me (because believe me, people tell me how to eat a lot), just remember I'm not like you. And more importantly, this diet is working for me. So don't try to fix something that isn't broken.

Oh, and last time my cholesterol was checked, it was 3.5. The LOW end of normal.

Facts.

Also remember one can take vitamin supplements.

Thanks for reading folks, stay tuned for more updates, both here, and on my youtube channel.

www.youtube.com/davidgrimsonmusic

P.s I do NOT recommend anyone who does not have my condition to try this diet. You will get fat. And you will blame me, and I don't need that!

P.P.s I'm not gloating about being able to eat Take-away. It's simply an easy way for me to get what I need for my body to work.

The weigh in!

Hey folks,

Really quick post today, but I just wanted to give you all an update on my new dieting and meat-tox and what not. I decided to weigh myself this morning (Saturday morning), just to see if there'd been any improvement since starting this new diet on Tuesday. I was expecting maybe to lose a couple hundred grams, but to my surprise, the numbers had changed quite a bit more than that.

Here's a quick video in which I talk about just what that change was.

Take a look, and like, share, comment, subscribe, tweet, post, pin, add and all the usual social media stuff!

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The first three days,

Hi folks,

So I thought I'd give you all a bit of an update to let you know how the first few days of this "meat-tox" that I'm trying is working out. I've already lost some weight, which is good news, and I'm feeling good in general about what I'm eating. I bought some 70% cocoa dark chocolate, which is what was recommended to me to eat if I wanted chocolate way back in 2006, and I haven't touched any of the regular chocolate in my fridge since Monday.

I've made a video each day for the first three days, and here they are!

Day One

Day Two

Day Three

If you haven't checked them out, please do. I don't think they'll be daily videos for the entire month, because, quite frankly, I don't think that would be very interesting. But I am going to do at least weekly videos.

I really want some feedback (unless you're vegetarian, and you're just going to tell me meat is murder), so please watch them, and leave me a comment on here, or on the videos themselves.

Thanks!

The Meat-tox

Hey guys, really quick post today... I only have 6 minutes before the Royal Rumble starts, and I don't want to miss it.

So, here it is. I've put on some weight again recently, and that's not a good thing for me, for a lot of reasons. SO, I'm starting what I'm going to call a "meat-tox" tomorrow. Think of it the same way as a detox, but with meat.

The reason it's a Meat-tox, is because if I did a detox, my body would literally stop working and start eating itself. Scary huh?

The basic idea is that I'm going to completely stop eating all the stuff that I know is really bad for me that I've been eating too much of recently, and also to really cut back in general on the amount of carbs I eat, because carbs are not my friend.

To help keep myself accountable I'm going to be doing video diaries and blogs about how I'm going. Firstly I'm trying for a month, to see how well it works, and if there's any little tweaks I need to do to keep things going well.

                                                So here's the first video diary entry thing.



Wish me luck!

I'm not like you: Part 3 (re-post)

Well, I said there'd be a part three to this.. so now no-one can call me a liar. Are you calling me a liar? Yeah.. you.. in front of your computer... well no more!



Ok...that was a weird intro.

So this is going to be the third post in this series (it's a series now) of posts I've done about my condition, and how it affects me. Now, this isn't a "oh.. everybody needs to feel sorry for me because I'm different" thing, I don't feel sorry for myself, so why should anyone else? Nor am I saying that my problems are any worse or harder than anyone else's who has to deal with disabilities or impairments. This is simply my way of getting information about my condition out there, and also maybe give my friends a little more understanding about all this stuff.


The other thing that I distinctly remember from writing the last two posts, is that I actually cement things in my head by writing them down, and in a way, I learn things about myself by writing about them.



So it's been about a year and a half since I wrote part two. I've learned quite a few new things about my condition, and made a few new changes in my life to help better deal with it as well. And for the most part, it's all been a success.


One thing that I'm not sure I mentioned in the first two posts, is about headaches. I used to suffer regular migraines, and do still occasionally get them. I get really bad pains in my neck which radiates up to my head mainly. But, the reason that I used to get them so much was because of my hair, and how long it was. Tying it back 90% of the time put extra pressure on my neck (as I'm sure it does for everyone else), and adding that to the muscle aches and pains, made getting a headache quite an easy thing.



So I guess that's an explanation for people who didn't know as to why I cut my hair off a couple of years ago. That and well.. your wife leaving you makes you want to make some changes after a little while.


As I said, I made some changes in my life to help with my condition. The first was that I made a pact, or a commitment, to get on my treadmill every single day without fail. And since I decided that, I have walked on that treadmill no matter what, every day for 518 days. Some days I've only managed two minutes, or five minutes, but for the better part, I've been doing my 30 minutes every day.


I can't tell you how much this has helped. Actually, I have a blog, so I can. I can boil it down to this. If I hadn't started that, and walked every day for as long as I have, I wouldn't have a band. I physically would not be able to handle playing gigs. I'd be in so much pain. I've talked before about things like cleaning my teeth can wear me out. Yeah, it can, when I don't stick to my exercise.



Let me just clarify though, the walking doesn't build fitness. Things that people without my condition wouldn't think twice about, like a shower, or doing the grocery shopping, they still wear me out. The walking builds conditioning and stamina to allow my body to function better. So I may get tired out, but I recover quicker, and I've also noticed that I can do things for longer, like playing gigs or rehearsing, and even the grocery shopping doesn't tire me out quite as much.


That was the biggest change definitely, but I've made some smaller ones. Diet is another big one. This one is really recent actually. I was talking to a vegetarian actually (don't get me started.. ) and they were trying to tell me I should find vegetarian alternatives for my protein.. after I'd explained that it HAD to be animal protein, not things like nuts, or tofu or any other vegetarian crap. (seriously, don't get me started.) But she asked me why it had to be animal protein, and I had no answer other than "That's what my specialist told me". I had theories though... I thought maybe it had to be animal protein because it's made of the same stuff my muscles are made of essentially.



But I wanted to find out more, so I was researching diets associated with my condition. What I came across was really interesting. It turns out that a high protein but also high FAT (yup.. high fat) diet tends to work well for people with my condition. And, I can totally attest to that.


Let me give you an example, because I'm sure you're sitting there going "if you eat a high fat diet, you're going to get fat".. or "but there's good fats and bad fats"... or "you're just using it as an excuse to get an extra quarter pounder, fatty". Well, let me tell you something, my normal bodied friends...

When I got back from New York in 2006, I weighed about 115 kilograms. I made massive changes to my diet based on the information from my specialist, but because I was (and am) on a limited budget, I couldn't get lean meats in big enough quantities. Remember, I have to eat 500 grams of "animal protein" a day.. at least. That is the equivalent weight of 4 quarter pounder patties plus the cheese.


So my diet consisted of those Twiggy Sticks (salami sticks essentially), very little bread, as much protein as I could get for dinner (I think there were things like homemade pizza.. but it was 6 years ago..), but my main point is, every 3 days or so I'd have McDonalds. I would have a Big Mac, a Quarter Pounder, and a McChicken.


You're all sitting there saying "that's too much take away". FOR YOU IT IS. But I'll get to that.


For me, it worked. I ate a high protein, and, without really meaning to, a high fat diet. I walked on my treadmill 2 out of every 3 days for only 10 minutes each day (not as much as I'm doing now), and in 6 months, I went down to 100 kilograms. So all your "too much fat" arguments are invalid.


Now this is where I get a pet peeve of mine off of my chest. Yes, eating take away is bad. Yes, a high fat diet is bad. But the problem is, every single person I've discussed this with is looking at it from a "normal" person's perspective. Your bodies work properly. Mine does not. It (in my opinion) has compensated for that by being able to process fats and protein better. I look at it in the same way as a blind person's other senses are heightened. My body's ability to process, and use up fats is "heightened".


But even if that's not true, studies have shown that a high fat diet works for people with my condition, and I have shown myself that I can lose weight, even if I eat higher fat foods. So, please, anyone who reads this, don't come to me with your ideas about what I should eat. I've tried everything you can think of.


I will also point out that I had a cholesterol test done during this year. The result was a cholesterol level of 3.5 which is at the lower end of normal. Again, your too much fat argument is invalid.


That's another thing. People say to me "you don't have to eat take away though.. you should cook more". Ok yes. You are correct. But how many of you get tired from preparing something to put it in the oven, let alone bend down to put it in the oven?


I've had a lot of suggestions. And, I know they're coming from a helpful place, but again, it's coming from a place where people don't have to think about energy conservation within their own body. Someone I was talking to a couple of weeks ago suggested I cook all my meals at the start of the week, and that way I'd have enough food and wouldn't need McDonalds. This is absolutely true. But I don't have the energy to cook 14 meals, or 7 meals at once. Take away is easier than cooking. I know it involves driving and that seems counter-intuitive, but I know how my body feels, and when I'm feeling tired, driving is easier than cooking and preparing, because I drive more often than I cook. It's all about conditioning.


Incidentally, I've lost about 3 kilograms in a month, trying out this high fat, high protein diet. So it works.


The other change that I made in my diet is to allow for a certain amount of carbs every day. Originally I tried to cut out all the carbs, but I'd found that I was hungry a lot, and also I felt better once I began to eat between 100g and 200g of carbs a day. Really the only thing I worry about with my food these days is the quantity of carbs that I've eaten for the day.

The best example I can give you for this working happened a couple of days ago. Christmas day. I spent it with my Mum and her husband Joe. We had roast pork and turkey, vegetables, and some christmas desserts. There was some leftover pork, and Mum gave me some of it to take home for dinner. So, that night, my evening meal consisted of pork, and turkey. That's all. No carbs, just protein.


I managed to walk 15 minutes on my treadmill before the pain got to be too much. And that whole night, I ached more than I do normally, and everything just felt worse.


The problem is with protein, is that you absorb and use it all very quickly. There's no storing it for later. This is basically the crux of what makes my condition hard to manage, and also in some cases, so debilitating. Carbs are broken down into glycogen, which is stored as energy for muscles. My body doesn't do that, so I have to get energy from protein mainly, which does not store. Fat obviously does store, and I'm learning a bit about how my body uses that. My theory at the moment is that the reason I can lose weight with my diet, is because there's no carbs stored to be used as energy, and once the protein is gone, my body starts using the fats. For a normal person, the carbs would be basically the only thing used, and maybe some protein if they'd had it just before exercise.


So I feel like I've found a diet that works for me, and as long as I stick to my exercise, I will lose weight and reach my goal, which is that 100 kilogram mark.


The other main change that I've made is that I've totally cut out alcohol and caffeine. The caffeine is more to do with stress and anxiety issues, but the alcohol was for my condition. One drink and my arms and legs, and shoulders and neck all burn and ache, and I get really hot and red, and basically it makes me feel awful. But, aside from it being a lot better for my body, I also got inspired by a new(ish) hero of mine, a wrestler by the name of CM Punk. He lives a straight-edge life, which basically means no alcohol, drugs, or cigarettes. There's a bit more to it than that, but that's the basic idea. (for example, vegetarianism sometimes goes hand in hand with straight-edge.. but I can't do that, nor would I if I could). I'm not one of those preachy people who would tell you that you shouldn't drink because I don't, but I just choose not to put those things into my body any more. Everyone else's body is their own business.

The other thing that I wanted to write about in this post is pain tolerance. For a long time I've found it hard to understand, sympathise, even empathise with others when they are in physical pain. I'm sure this was just because of my condition, and being in a constant state of pain. Even as I'm sitting here, I have pains in my back, my jaw, my hands, and my eyes are a little sore. (Eyes have skeletal muscles, therefore are affected by my condition). I'm actually thinking about getting my eyes checked, just to make sure I'm not just fooling myself thinking that tired eyes are because of my condition. I can see everything fine, just not as clear as I should be I don't think.


But back to the pain tolerance thing. I can remember a lot of times my ex was in pain, be it a headache or a toothache, or some kind of pains in her leg or anything really, and I would make sure she was ok, but in my mind I would be thinking something along the lines of "Oh, you can't be in that much pain".. I had a real "suck it up" kind of attitude.


I'm not proud of that of course, but all I can say is that I was dealing with a lot of pain on a daily basis. I feel like that has pushed my pain tolerance way up, and what may be a 6 or 7 out of ten for someone else, would be a one or two for me. I handle pain pretty well, I mean, a kidney stone for me was about an 8, and it should be a 20 out of 10 from what I've been told.


I had a conversation with my Mum about this a couple of months ago. We talked about everything I just mentioned, about not being able to understand people's pain, feeling disconnected from it, feeling like they couldn't possibly be in that much pain, because to me it wouldn't be that bad. But, from talking about it with her, we figured out that the pain scale is a relative thing. Your four out of ten may be different from your best friend's four out of ten, but you still understand relatively how they'd feel. And to me, that was a bit of a revelation. Maybe I've just finally grown up properly though.


Wow, this is a long post isn't it? Ok I'm nearly done I promise. I mean, it has been 18 months, so you knew going in this wasn't going to be short.


The last thing I want to talk about is playing gigs. I'm actually hoping some of my new punk rock friends will read this, because it's quite hard to explain why I can't move in the back rooms of pubs and clubs with music blaring and people's ears already ringing from being on stage, and I want them to know why I leave early, and why I'm so exhausted after I finish playing. I swear, sometimes I must look like Meat Loaf after I finish.. I've heard he passes out sometimes.


I love playing shows. This last six months, playing shows with my best friend next to me, playing our songs we've spent multiple hours working on, refining, surprising each other with little ideas... it's simply amazing. And the reaction to our music has been 99.99% positive... ok there was one guy who called us lame.. but screw that guy.


But gigs are also the hardest thing I do. Again it's the little things that people don't have to think about normally, like how close the parking is, what time we're on vs what time we leave, how high off the ground the stage is (it's hard for me to get up onto high stages without steps, and even harder to get down), how long our set is, and, as I said in part two, crowds and things like that put me on edge a lot too.


I have the same issues with acoustic gigs as well, but to a lesser extent. We tend to have some longer breaks between songs, which sometimes annoys people I'm sure, but it's purely to give me a little rest so that I can play the rest of the gig.

I do sometimes feel bad though, when I'm playing full band shows, and we leave before the last band finishes. Sometimes we've left as soon as we finish playing. In fact, I remember one gig we played, Curt (my best friend) and I turned up about 10 minutes before we were supposed to start, so we walked in and walked straight on stage, played, and we'd left within 15 minutes of finishing the set.

Now, this is partially because we play a lot on week nights as we're just starting out, and Curt has to work the next day and we have to drive back to Ballarat from Melbourne, but it's also because I'm so spent physically that I can't stay. And that's what I feel bad about. We need to support each other as musicians, but I can't always. I also am not the most animated on stage, but that is simply to conserve energy for singing, which is what I find the most tiring.

I wouldn't change any of it though. I absolutely love the music we're playing. I love that it can be played acoustically, or plugged with a full band. I love that we have fans, and I love that I've made a whole new bunch of friends. The punk scene feels really inclusive. No matter what style you play, people are into it and are friendly. Aside from that one guy who thought we were lame.

The plus side is we have an awesome title for a new song. "Sorry for being so lame".



So that's it for this instalment. I'm considering starting a video blog, maybe once a week or something to talk about general issues and also give updates on my weight and band and what not.. but I don't know how much interest people would have in it. Let me know if that's something you'd like to see.


Thanks for reading, and as with last time, I'm sure there will be another part to this eventually.

I'm not like you: Part 2 (re-post)

It's been a little while since i wrote anything on here, but, there's always more i could explain about my condition. Writing the first part actually helped me understand what i have. Every day i learn a little something more about what i have, just by living. Like, "Oh, If i spend too long putting wax in my hair and working it around, my arms hurt".


So just to update a few things, I got a new treadmill, and it's amazing. Thankyou so much to the Steve Waugh Foundation (who also gave me a grant to buy a freezer), getting the new treadmill means i now have the ability to get back down to a weight i'm comfortable with, and also, store a lot of healthy food, rather than rely on processed meats and takeaway to get my protein serve for the day.


I'm trying to be more active, to do more things, the way things work with my body is in essence "the less i do, the less i can do". So by being more active, even if it's just playing guitar every day, or singing every day, or even going to gigs more, as well as my walking, I will be able to eventually handle staying at a gig for more than an hour or so.


I went to a gig on sunday, and sure enough, right around that hour mark my legs were killing me. I'm not sure what it is that causes it exactly, I was just standing there. But all i know is that by the time we left, my legs were feeling terrible. And also, I was woken up the next morning by a massive cramp in my calf muscle.


I should point out, comfort is a big thing for me. I'm not just talking about sitting in a comfortable chair, i mean, i tend to feel uncomfortable at other people's houses, at restaurants, at pubs and clubs. I don't necessarily mean physically uncomfortable, i just mean i suppose mentally uncomfortable would be the right term? But regardless, that in turn makes me physically uncomfortable because i don't relax, so my muscles are tensed up and i feel like i have to act "normal". Don't ask me why, i have no idea. Everyone wants on some level to fit in right? Even people who rebel, "goths', emo kids, punks, everyone fits into a certain group. It's hard to find a group of "people who have a rare condition that can't be diagnosed as yet".


So i spend a lot of time at home, some people see that as unhealthy.. "oh you need to get out more".. well to that i say, spend a day in my body, and tell me what you'd rather do? I stay at home, because it means that i have the energy to occasionally do other things.


Things that don't seem essential to "normal" people, such as Dvds and Video games, these things provide me entertainment. Think about your day, maybe you have a job, maybe you study, maybe a business. But that would take up the greater part of your day right? Now, imagine all of that time, for a whole week lets say, so that's what.. 40 hours or so (if you work 8 hours a day) .. imagine that time being spent not working. Just at home. You would need a lot of things to keep you entertained. For me those things tend to be my Laptop, my Dvd collection, and my Gaming. Also Pay Tv. I tend to watch a lot of sport as well, a lot of different sports. I used to play cricket, and soccer and basketball when i was growing up, and i can't imagine doing that now. So i have to "live vicariously" if you will, through watching sport and playing video games. I can't run around and play soccer, but by having FIFA 11 on my xbox, i can get a similar feeling. Also, going back to my original point, it passes the time. Spend 40 hours sitting on your couch, and you'll know what i mean.


So, to my friends who read this, I am trying to get more active, I want to be able to come round to your place occasionally, rather than the other way around all the time, but it's taking some time, and i know not all of you completely understand what i have. There are a couple of you that get it just about as well as i do though, and i appreciate the help you give me and everything.


On that subject I also really appreciate the help my mum gives me. She comes up here (to where i live) from Melbourne each fortnight, partially just to see me, but also to help me with my housework. Sure, i keep my house clean, it's not that hard if you just make a little effort (hehehe), but the bigger jobs i need help with. So thankyou.


Ok before i get to soppy i'm going to end this. I'm sure there will be a part 3 of this eventually, i'm always learning new things. Like, don't eat too much chicken. your foot will swell up.

I'm not like you: Part 1 (re-post)

So, the afformentioned blog on my disability. It's really hard to explain something when there's not a lot of information on it, but i'll do my best.


I try to give people a basic idea of what my condition is, but it's still hard to understand the limitations i have because of it. What i have is called a Glycogen Storage Disease, of which there are roughly 14 varieties, and so far no-one can tell me which of the varieties I have, with the exception of telling me I don't have the one that would have killed me before i was 5. Which i had already figured out, being that i'm alive. Anyway, what it means is that my body can't process carbohydrates and sugars the way it's supposed to. There are a series of enzymes, in a chain that break down carbs and sugars into what our muscles use as energy, and store it for future use. My body is missing at least one of those enzymes, so the process doesn't work. Because of that, my muscles can't get what they need to work properly.

This means i have weaker muscles, and a lower capacity for physical exertion. it also means i have to have a different diet. Which is a high protein/low carb diet. not a no carb diet, which is good, because it's hard to find a lot of variety in just eating meat. But the protein isn't stored as energy, so i have no reserve of energy in my body. If i do overdo it physically and there's no more "fuel" for my muscles, they start to break themselves down and feed on themselves basically, which can lead to something called Rhabdomyolosis, which can in turn lead to kidney failure. so it's kinda serious.

Unless i told you, you wouldn't know that even when i'm just sitting on a chair talking to you, usually i'll have at least 2 or 3 areas of my body that are aching, hurting, or some other kind of sore. for example, right now i'm sitting on my couch with my feet up, and well.. from top to bottom, my neck is sore, my shoulder hurts, my arms are aching, my fingers hurt, my butt is sore, my knees hurt and my feet are burning and sore. that's a normal day for me.

So that's one reason that i would have trouble finding a job. I think some of my friends feel like i should work, even though i have this thing. But i'm in the most comfortable space i can be, with the exception of bed, but still that hurts, and all of those parts of my body are sore. Try and imagine that in yourselves, and then put yourself into an uncomfortable location. Sure everyone has little pains and niggles, but it's not the same.


One of the things i find the hardest to deal with is disappointing people because i can't do something that's been planned. I missed my best friend's engagement party because i had a shower and then for some reason i could barely move for 2 or 3 hours. I didn't go to sydney for christmas partly because of not being able to sleep in my own bed, and worrying about how much my back would hurt. But i'm learning to put myself first, and knowing what my limits are. Something i didn't do as much when i was married.


Before any kind of activity I have to do a sort of mental check on how i'm feeling physically, how much the activity is going to take out of me, and if it's too much. I don't just mean things like going to a friend's place, or rehearsing with my band/s. I mean anything. Having a shower, washing clothes, doing dishes, feeding my cats, doing shopping.. all the things that most people never give a second thought to, i have to.

Also because my muscles aren't as strong it puts more pressure on my joints, which gives me a lot of back pain.

I'm also susceptible to getting gout.


I'm not trying to have a whinge here, or get everyone feeling sorry for me (that's just low), I just want to try to explain my condition as best i can.


I have an excercise regime that i try to adhere to, unfortunately my treadmill seems to be on it's last legs at the moment, but hopefully i'll be recieving a new one as part of a grant from the Steve Waugh foundation. But this thing that i have makes it very hard to keep weight off, which, as a lot of you have probably noticed, has meant that i've gained some weight over the last 2 years or so. Apparently a little too much for certain people...


I really wish that i'd known about this when i was in high school. it's hard not being able to keep up with everyone else physically, especially in a country town where there is a lot of emphasis put on sport. Luckily though, my condition hasn't stopped me from being able to play music, and sing, although i'm convinced the struggles i have with singing are connected. It just would have been nice to have an explanation for why i couldn't run around the lake, or why i sucked at the beep test (who else hates the beep test!?)


Anyway.. i can't really think of anything else about this at the moment, i'm sure there is some stuff that i've left out, which will probably appear in another entry at some point.


So i guess, don't judge a book by it's cover, coz underneath could be something you don't understand?


Cheers.