Wrestlemania Eve, Paranoia and Music Galore!

Twas the night before Wrestlemania, and all through the house, not a creature was stirring.. wait.. I'm sitting here writing, that has to count as stirring right?

Hey folks, it's certainly been a little while since I've written a proper blog post. So here's a quick catch up on what's been happening in the last few months.

I made some new friends, one in particular that I get along with so well, I played some gigs, The Savages even got to play a "full band show" with our old drummer who flew in from Perth especially for something else, and just happened to have the time to play a show, I have kept my diet up and am down a little over 8 kilos now (I've still got a long way to go, but it's a pretty decent start I think) And I've cut way back on my facebook usage.

That last one leads me into the subject of this here blog entry.

Once again, that whole confidence thing that I talked about a few months ago is something that I'm still having problems with. So much so that I'm worried that I may have screwed up a budding friendship with a really great person.

I should tell a bit of back story here right? Well, without naming any names or getting too specific, I made a new friend in the last couple of months, and we get along amazingly well. We bonded over some similar circumstances and just clicked. You know what I mean.. you meet someone and you just click instantly? That. That's what happened.

 The problem is, this new friend of mine is a much busier person than me, and frequently goes on trips to melbourne, along with working, and doing all the things most people do. So sometimes it can be hard to get in contact with them. Which, I totally understand and I'm not complaining about it at all. People lead busy lives. I tend not to, but that doesn't give me the right to be like "hey.. why didn't you message me back straight away?"

So, here's my problem. My new friend, let's call her Alice because I'm sick of using pronouns, and plus, Milla Jovovich plays Alice in Resident Evil and she kicks ass. Anyway, Alice has had some hard times lately from what I can gather, but I think because our friendship is still new, she hasn't felt comfortable really talking to me about it, which again, I totally understand. I had some rough times last year, and there was only one friend I felt comfortable talking to candidly about it all, and really, there's still not many people I'll totally open up to when it comes to hard times.

But of course, that didn't stop me from acting like a moron.

Now, when I say moron, I don't mean I said something really dumb, or went totally crazy, and honestly, this could all just be in my head, and I could just be somehow picking the worst time to text Alice lately. Bad timing seems to be the theme with me lately. I met a girl one week too late and she met someone else in between our two dates, a girl told me she thinks I'm great but she'd just gotten out of a relationship with a guy called David, who even LOOKED like me... I even started talking to a girl who was leaving like 2 days later to go on holiday for a month. Just bad timing.

On the plus side, I have a hell of a lot of new songs written.

But back to the story. Really all that's happened is that I haven't heard from Alice in about two weeks. The problem is, I've sent her half a dozen messages in that time, and haven't got a response. Now like I said, my logical brain tells me that's most likely because A: she's not comfortable talking to me at the moment because of what's going on in her life (which, as I said, I completely relate to), and B: I'm picking bad times to text.

But the problem is, and this is the real thing for me, I would text her, get no response, and start this cycle of thinking that goes something like "Oh, she probably hasn't read it/wait, she must have read it, I just saw her online on facebook/she mustn't want to reply to me/oh I'll just say hi on facebook now/ok now I know she saw that message, facebook tells me so/why didn't she reply?/oh man I've screwed this up, I should text her and say sorry/wait no I can't do that, it's too soon/but if I don't talk to her she'll forget about me and we won't be friends/I have to keep in touch otherwise the friendship won't last.

And there is the problem. Last year I felt like I'd lost a really good friend who I have known for about 15 years, because I decided to stop putting all the effort into my friendship with her, and we lost touch. I think that's part of it at least. I feel like, especially with new friendships, I need to keep in regular contact or I'll lose the friend.

But, it's more than that, because I'm not like that with every person I meet. Something's different with Alice. It may be that because I really feel that great connection that I really want us to be friends, and I don't want to lose what we were building. It may be that I feel like I don't have many close friends these days, and want to hold on to those friendships that feel close and good.

I really can't put my finger on what it is, but I know that it definitely has to do with my complete lack of self confidence. I feel like I'm not good enough for Alice, that I have to prove myself worthy to be her friend, and I find myself thinking "why would she want to be friends with me?". And yes, I know that way of thinking is not great, but I can't seem to get away from it. I'm sure she doesn't think like that, and I don't really know why I do.

Well, I mean that's not totally true, I do know where it stems from. But I feel like I should be past all that stuff by now. It's almost been three full years since then.

And a totally separate part of me thinks that I'm just being an idiot and paranoid and that I shouldn't worry about it, and I should do what feels right.

I just don't know which side of me is winning right now.

What I do know is that I really hope I haven't made Alice feel like she doesn't want to be my friend any more. She's a pretty great person, and it makes me sad to know she's having a hard time at the moment. We may have only met a couple of months ago, but my life is better for her being in it, and if that changes, it will most definitely suck.

So that's it, I just needed a place to get all this stuff off of my chest without it being too specific or anything.

Wait, some positive news to end this. That's a good idea right?

I have my first solo gig for 9 months coming up this Thursday night! I'm really excited about it, as well as a bit nervous, but I feel like it's going to go well. As I said earlier, I've been writing a lot of new stuff, so it'll be fun to show off some new material. Let's just hope I have a somewhat decent crowd there to listen to me.

                                                 Here's the promo video I made for the show:
                                        

Also today I bought, for the first time in a long time, some new music DVDS. I'd gone into JB Hifi to pre-order a new xbox game, but walked out with 4 new DVDS. Nirvana Live at Reading, Iron Maiden: Maiden England 88, Johnny Cash live in Denmark, and End of the Century: The Story of the Ramones (which is an amazing documentary).

Oh and I forgot to pre-order the game. Smart stuff huh?

Also I've recently purchased a new video camera and Tablet, so from now on, I'll be able to play Angry Birds on a bigger screen and then make a full  HD video blog about it.

Good times!

That's it folks, thanks for reading, sorry it was mostly a downer.

There's really only one thing left to say.
WRESTLEMANIA TOMORROW BABY! 21-0

And I'm done.

The weigh in!

Hey folks,

Really quick post today, but I just wanted to give you all an update on my new dieting and meat-tox and what not. I decided to weigh myself this morning (Saturday morning), just to see if there'd been any improvement since starting this new diet on Tuesday. I was expecting maybe to lose a couple hundred grams, but to my surprise, the numbers had changed quite a bit more than that.

Here's a quick video in which I talk about just what that change was.

Take a look, and like, share, comment, subscribe, tweet, post, pin, add and all the usual social media stuff!

Follow me @D_Grimson on twitter, and like my facebook pages!
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Also just quickly, if anyone is interested in music lessons, I'm starting up skype music lessons as soon as I get some interest, so let me know on here, or go to www.facebook.com/DavidGrimsonOnlineMusicLessons

The first three days,

Hi folks,

So I thought I'd give you all a bit of an update to let you know how the first few days of this "meat-tox" that I'm trying is working out. I've already lost some weight, which is good news, and I'm feeling good in general about what I'm eating. I bought some 70% cocoa dark chocolate, which is what was recommended to me to eat if I wanted chocolate way back in 2006, and I haven't touched any of the regular chocolate in my fridge since Monday.

I've made a video each day for the first three days, and here they are!

Day One

Day Two

Day Three

If you haven't checked them out, please do. I don't think they'll be daily videos for the entire month, because, quite frankly, I don't think that would be very interesting. But I am going to do at least weekly videos.

I really want some feedback (unless you're vegetarian, and you're just going to tell me meat is murder), so please watch them, and leave me a comment on here, or on the videos themselves.

Thanks!

The Meat-tox

Hey guys, really quick post today... I only have 6 minutes before the Royal Rumble starts, and I don't want to miss it.

So, here it is. I've put on some weight again recently, and that's not a good thing for me, for a lot of reasons. SO, I'm starting what I'm going to call a "meat-tox" tomorrow. Think of it the same way as a detox, but with meat.

The reason it's a Meat-tox, is because if I did a detox, my body would literally stop working and start eating itself. Scary huh?

The basic idea is that I'm going to completely stop eating all the stuff that I know is really bad for me that I've been eating too much of recently, and also to really cut back in general on the amount of carbs I eat, because carbs are not my friend.

To help keep myself accountable I'm going to be doing video diaries and blogs about how I'm going. Firstly I'm trying for a month, to see how well it works, and if there's any little tweaks I need to do to keep things going well.

                                                So here's the first video diary entry thing.



Wish me luck!

It's been quite a year

Well.. It's the last day of 2012, and I find myself reflecting back on the year I've had, as I'm sure many of you are doing. Or you're already drunk. Either way, fun times!

So, I thought I'd write a post talking about my year, and my goals for next year. Not resolutions as such.. just things I would like to achieve.

A lot happened for me this yeas, as I'm sure it did for you. It started with my ex-step-dad Dave (it's complicated I know) telling me he was planning to move to Queensland, which I took... not so well. He had, for a long time, been the main father figure in my life, and had always been 5 minutes away, if not in the same house, for the past 16 years. So needless to say, it wasn't an easy goodbye. We've stayed in touch.. but not as much as I'd like.

Skipping ahead while I'm on the Dad bit, in the middle of the year I got back in touch with my "real" Dad as it were, Kevin, who lives in New South Wales. I haven't seen him since my wedding back in 2009, and I hadn't talked to him for about a year and a half at the time I decided to get in touch with him again. I'm glad I did, because we've managed to re-kindle a friendship that we hadn't really had for a long time. I think he sees me as an adult now, which is good, and we have some health issues in common (he wears a caliper on one leg and has trouble walking and what not), so we have a common ground we can always talk about. Which is great. I had a lot of fun going to stay with my Dad when I was young, and I'm glad we've got past the issues we had.


So back to the beginning of the year. Only a few weeks after Dave left, my cat Sabbath got sick, and unfortuntately he had to be put down. That was just as hard, if not a little harder than Dave leaving, because.. well Dave is still alive!
As hard as it was, I know it was the right thing to do, rather than have him live in pain. Saying goodbye to him, and being in that room while the vet did what they had to do, was one of the hardest things I've ever done. But he got so many pats, and he was told he was a good boy, and the last thing he heard and saw was me. It's a hard thing when a pet dies. It makes me think of a Kevin Smith quote, when he was talking about losing one of his dogs early this year... "They spend basically their whole lives with you, but you can't spend your whole life with them".

I still miss him, but I have so many fond memories, that I usually am happy thinking about him. He would rear up on his back legs and rub his cheek on my leg, and he would get scared of his own tail and make himself jump... he was awesome.

It affected my other cat Rupert as well, he's become more attached to me, but he's also calmer these days. I think he was stressed out when Sabbath was sick, and it took a while for him to get past it. But he's much better now, and I think quietly loves being the only cat again.

In April, my mum and her husband Joe moved from Melbourne, up here to Ballarat. That was a big thing for me, especially after Dave leaving. My condition makes it such that having someone close by all the time who I can rely on in case I need help, or can't move, or pass out is a big stress reliever. Plus, it's nice to be able to have lunch at mum's once a week. Free food is the best food right?

May, was my birthday. Nothing much happened there.. just my birthday.

Oh, I know what happened in may. I began a relationship with someone. It only lasted two months unfortunately, but when things aren't right, they aren't right. She and I are still great friends, and even though things didn't work out, I wouldn't change anything. She's happy with her boyfriend, and I'm really happy to have her as a friend.

June.. well that's an easy one. The band got a name, and played it's first show. We ran through a bunch of names before coming up with The Savages... The Snowballs, The SavageRs, Bunch of Savages, and a few more.
Our first show wasn't the most amazing beginning. We supported a band that sounded nothing like us, and the crowd that was there weren't exactly there to see us. I distinctly remember saying the following: "So.. has anyone heard of Elvis Presley?" ... and there were crickets. Crickets! Oh, until one hipster idiot said in a stupid voice "Is he on australian idol?" ... ugh.. hipsters. We were also a four-piece for that show interestingly.

Since then however, we've become a three piece (and at the moment, a two-piece) and played some amazing shows, mostly in Melbourne. We played once in Ballarat, and once in Geelong at The Nash, just before it closed down. We played one of the final gigs at the Barleycorn in Melbourne as well, which was a lot of fun.

But the biggest show that we played, was in fact our last show we've played as a full band at this point. It was also the hardest show to make happen.

Last year we saw a band called Batfoot!. This was the band that inspired Curt and I to start a pop/punk band. So when we saw that they were coming back to Victoria (they are from New South Wales) we wanted to play a show with them. So we got in touch with Craig, the Bass player/singer, and tried to get ourselves a slot on one of the shows.

Craig managed to get us a spot on their geelong show, but a few weeks later, we found out that The Nash, where the gig was meant to be, was closing down, and would be closed about 3 weeks before our show was scheduled.

So with very short notice, I emailed every single venue I'd played gigs at just about, and had no luck. The closest we got was an afternoon gig on the same day our original show was scheduled for. So it looked like we were going to have to cancel the show, which sucked. Then, this great little venue called IDGAFF had a cancellation for the night our show was meant to be, and they gave the night to us with about 8 days to spare!

So all went well, we played the show, and had the best time. We've got plans to go up to NSW next year some time and play some shows up there with Batfoot!, and just generally hang out and have a great time. I personally can't wait to do that, it'll be great to play shows up there, being that I lived up there until I was 10.


We also have plans to record our first EP/Album (depending on how many songs we get recorded) early next year, possibly even next month. Also, we'll be getting our first batch of Savages T-Shirts early next year so that's awesome too!

Also this year I applied for a Bachelor of Arts degree at University, and I got in. Unfortunately, after having a look at the campus, and how the classes worked, I basically figured out I physically couldn't handle that and the band. And being that the band was just getting on it's feet when the course was going to start, I decided to defer for now. I have until the end of january to decide if I want to start this semester, or defer it again, or just pass on the course altogether.


Some smaller things that happened... I bought/got 3 new guitars due to the Allans music store in ballarat closing. They had 3 Left-handed electric guitars left, and I got all three of them! Two squier strats, one being an affinity series, and the other a standard series, and one Schecter Omen. I absolutely love the Schecter, I only paid $315, reduced from $550. It plays like a much more expensive guitar, and is near perfect. I do wish I'd had the money to buy the next model up, which has coil-tapping (turning the humbucker pickups into single-coil pickups.. technical I know), but I'm so happy with the one I got.

I reached (and passed) walking every single day on my treadmill for a year. In fact now, I'm up to around 520 days. The next goal is 600, and obviously then 700, and finally 2 years. I'm thinking I may take a day off when I get to 1000... but I doubt it.

I finally got a gigging amp as well. Without it, playing in my band would almost not be possible. It's the loudest thing I've ever played through. Most of the time I have it on about 3 (out of 10) and get told it's too loud.

I got a laptop that lets me play minecraft without it overheating. As well as a lot of other things that it does well.

I also gave up alcohol completely, and stopped drinking caffeine.


Oh, and of course, I got a new car. My mum held a raffle through her social club, and they raised about $6000.. and I finally got a car that works, with air conditioning, a cd player, power windows... all standard things these days, but to me, having never had those things before, I finally feel like I have a modern car.

So that's my year basically.. ups and downs yes, but more ups than downs definitely, and especially in the second half of the year.

So thanks to all my friends and family for being awesome, especially my best mate Curt. And my Mum.

Also thanks to all the new friends I've met, you guys are all awesome and I'm so glad to have met you.

That's it really, I hope everyone enjoys their new year celebrations, stay safe, please be careful on the roads, don't drink too much, don't drink and drive.. don't sit on a firework as it's going off.. and most importantly have fun!

See you all in 2013!!

P.S If anyone lives on a state border where there's a time difference.. tonight you have the rare opportunity for time travel! Jump back and forth over the border.. and you'll be in 2012 on one side, and 2013 on the other! Spooky!!